BROWARD COUNTY, Fla. (WTVJ) – Confessed Parkland Florida school shooter Nikolas Cruz has been writing letters from prison.
There are about 40 pages of letters where he expresses everything from his embrace of the second amendment and his disdain for immigrants, to contemplating a possible death sentence, WTVJ reports.
In the letters, Cruz wrote but never sent to a woman he called Miley in England who had reached out to him in jail, his tone alternates from professing his love for the woman, in immature ways, fantasizing she “will become my wife…” to inviting the reader to look into his eyes, which he calls “scary.”
He draws childish stick figures and hearts with the names of the “two couples in love.”
“I wish we could be together, but under these circumstances I don’t think that will happen,” he writes. “But I have hope. I wish life for me could have been different.”
“I was wondering if you be interested in marriage when the time’s come,” he writes, with the spelling and grammatical errors. “I feel like we make a great family together with lots of kids… I feel like I’ll never be loved and I’ll die alone … I don’t know what’s wrong with me maybe I should get the death penalty I (don’t know) I just want love…”
Regarding the children he hoped to have, he said he would name the three boys after firearms: Kalashnikov, Remington and Makarov.
The letters were confiscated from his cell in November after he was accused of attacking a corrections officer. They were just released this week.
The letters show death row was not far from his mind, saying the death penalty was “kind of what I want.”
And hoping he could watch a movie “when I go to prison or death row…hopefully not death row.”
Cruz is accused of killing 17 at Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School on Feb. 14, 2018.